Today all I can see is every dream that never came true
Every time I screamed out and never heard from You
Every loose end that never got tied
Every time I felt alone as I cried.
Today all I hear are the sneers of those mocking my faith
The repetition of questions never being set straight.
The deafening silence when I wait for You to make a move
The countless reasons to give up my faith til it’s proved.
Yet, my heart keeps calling out for You.
If You are who you say you are
Then I don’t need to worry
If you are who you say you are
This is all under your control
If you are who you say you are
You have plans for every tomorrow
If you are who you say you are
Troubles for today, I need not borrow
No obstacles block Your will
The blueprint You carefully devised
Each road we’re led down with intention
No detour is a surprise
What joy there is in surrender
To trust Your answer whether yea or nay
What sweetness there is in knowing
You’ve already paved the way
“I had this secret affair,” she said. “He loved me more than anyone could.
He bore his heart to me, brought his cares to me and listened equally as good.
The best of friends we quickly became
Our souls finding familiar comfort while passion filled the same.
But he had committed himself to another a long time ago.
He was not free to love me openly or so the story would go.”
So their commitment sat in silence, in a world all on it’s own
He would keep on loving her as long as he didn’t have to let the other go.
She cried out to the Lord in her desperation and pain
“Why give me this love that must stay hidden and contained?
Shouldn’t his love for me make it impossible to hide
Impossible to still hold onto another and in his closest companions not confide?”
And the Lord answered her: “Now I will ask the same question of you
Has your commitment to the world kept you silent of our love, too?
You walk with me each day, have come to know me and love me like no other
Yet keep me hidden from your world, contained as a secret lover.
Denounce your prior affinities, do not be ashamed
The intimacy we have grown by heart, now walk in the same.
Share our love story, no longer make me hide.
Let your faith in me match internally what is seen on the outside.”
“And I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. Then you will know the Lord.” Hosea 2:20
“For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. This is a profound mystery—but I am talking about Christ and the church.” Ephesians 5:31-32
Reaching for answers that aren’t there
Wondering if my wishes will vanish with the wind
Trying to make sense of the madness around me
Wondering what picture I fit in
Trying to grab hold of pleasures that pass me
To celebrate love and warm hearts
Distracted by horror stories, fears and theories
Unable to decide how true they all are
Building strength to stand on my convictions
With limited info to decide what those should be
Working day to day just to earn a living
Wondering if this is all that will become of me
At what point in time will the big picture be clear
When will we know what we chose to believe was right
I guess not until the ever after
So we keep saying our prayers every night
I can’t guarantee any outcome for tomorrow
Or even my breaths beyond today
But I can rest in the grace of my Savior
No matter how far I have fallen or strayed.
I can’t make my troubles on earth get better
But I can rejoice in heavenly truths
I can’t remove all fear or failures
But I can find real joy and peace in You
“Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. 13 But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.” 1 Peter 4:12-13
You are good
Even when our hearts break
Even when we forget our faith
When our emotions disagree
When life tries to steal our peace
You are good
When answers are unknown
When our plans are overthrown
You are good although we mourn
When our perfect picture is torn
In every season, through every storm
You are good.
I’ll keep reminding myself
To place my hope in You
Not in another, not in a circumstance
Not in flashes of temporary hope before me
Nor memories of victories past
No, only in You
Will I hope and rely
On the Rock of Your truth and promises
Will I place each brick of my life.
“It is like a person building a house who digs deep and lays the foundation on solid rock. When the floodwaters rise and break against that house, it stands firm because it is well built.” Luke 6:48
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