Be Teachable

You give me what I need

When I need it

Even though my understanding

may be wrong

You teach new truths

And clarify questions

You lovingly show me

Where I belong

I’ll acknowledge the signs

And accept the corrections.

I’ll allow myself

To hear what You say

I’ll let go of the past

Knowing it was all direction

To develop me more

And brighten tomorrow’s day

Lovesick

Just wanted to share my other poetry blog that covers other issues like depression, heartache and loss.

I like to keep the 2 separate so this blog can cover my faith perspective and hopefully offer hope. My other blog is a dumping ground for any and all emotions and may only offer hope for the simple knowledge that we’re not alone in our hurt or troubling emotions.

https://lovesick.blog/

He Walks with Me

A secret way by which You lead

Off the beaten path

Where no other traveler has set foot

Just You and I together at last

A place where You tell me

Of things long ago

And give me glimpses

Of where we’ll go

We sit by a stream

to refresh and renew

Where I bask in Your presence

And give my praise to You

Stand Firm

Stand firm, He says

Do not be swayed or dismayed

Stand firm, He says

Knowing I command the waves

Don’t let impatience have its voice

Calling you away or aside

Don’t rush ahead to force change

Convinced by your own pride

No, stand firm, He says

In my will and in my way

Stand firm, He says

For I rule this and every day.

Single Petition

Two are better than one, they say

So please send someone my way

But not just any man will do

He must know, seek and follow You.

“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

Hope Beyond all Reason

If the Lord wills it, it will come to pass

Although his timing looks different than mine

While in the waiting, I can rest assured

Knowing at his determined time, his promises I’ll find

“Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead—since he was about a hundred years old—and that Sarah’s womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.” Romans 4:19-21

How and When to Go

It was time to go, but I stubbornly stayed

Even when the land around me went dry

Abandoned to this wasteland

Endlessly searching for signs of life

But no sustenance would be found

Only drought and silence would abound

In this dry and fallow ground

With reluctance and tiny steps

And a good bye to all buried below

I gathered up my belongings and heart

And found His footsteps to follow

““ ‘If after all this you will not listen to me, I will punish you for your sins seven times over. I will break down your stubborn pride and make the sky above you like iron and the ground beneath you like bronze. Your strength will be spent in vain, because your soil will not yield its crops, nor will the trees of your land yield their fruit.” Leviticus 26:18-20

Confidence

I will not wait for You to rescue me

For You already did so on the cross

You’ve given me everything I need

To thrive, succeed and not be lost

My heart and my life

Are under the blanket of your care

I have freedom to move in confidence

And strength for all trials to bear.

“For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7

A Love Letter

I love you more then you can grasp. My love is unwavering, unchanging.

And, nothing you can do will alter it or take it away.

When you walk or run away from me, I hurt because I long to be with you.

I chose to face death to be with you.

I chose to see your sins no more.

I chose to speak until you heard me.

I chose to never close the door.

Sing

You give me a song to sing

When my heart is trembling

When sorrow is knocking on the door

You give me a song to sing

When my life is struck by thunder

When I can carry on no more

You give me a song to sing

To rise my tune above this plane

And on your wings of gladness soar

“But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

The Real Enemy

Our enemy, the deceiver

Always with something up his sleeve

Seeks to destroy and divide

And works to steal our peace

Be on the lookout, be alert

Hedge your heart so he can’t get in

Once inside the disguise is greater

And manipulates our lean to sin

Remember who the enemy is

Before his attempts begin

Our fight is not against each other

But principalities of darkness around and within.

“Be sober-minded and alert. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8

“For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12

“A new commandment I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you also must love one another.” John 13:34

Where to Then?

When He doesn’t raise the dead

But stays longer on his journey instead

When He doesn’t end the suffering

Or the drought with a fresh lain spring

When He allows the boat to capsize

And sits silently while we cry

Where does our faith, then, abide?

To the tomb, to the inner room

To the cross where He was forsaken

To the moments before victory

Where his believers sat unshaken

Iron, Silver & Fruit

We sharpened each other

Like an axe to the grind

Bearing down all the edges

Smoothing sin we tried to hide

Our weaknesses surfaced

But in grace we loved anyway

As little by little his righteousness

Burst forth and took the stage

For you, my friend, bore fruit in me

And I the same in you

I’ll never forget and always be thankful

For the refining we went through

“As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” Proverbs 27:17

“This third I will bring through the fire; I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on My name, and I will answer them. I will say, ‘They are My people,’ and they will say, ‘The LORD is our God.’ ” Zechariah 13:9

“I am the true vine, and My Father is the keeper of the vineyard. He cuts off every branch in Me that bears no fruit, and every branch that does bear fruit, He prunes to make it even more fruitful.” John 15:1-2

Believe

Let not my pride rob me

Nor my unforgiveness blind me

But my eyes of faith provide me

Vision to hope and believe

Let not my doubt corrupt me

Nor my selfishness drive me

But my call of grace guide me

To more than I can think or dream

“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us,” Ephesians 3:20

Sweet Surrender

To walk with You is my greatest desire

Receiving the wisdom of my faithful Father

No other fortunes or earthly ways

Satisfy this heart like your embrace

You humble every lofty idea

Reminding me I am but dust

All while loving and blessing me here

What a gift! The simplicity of trust

“More than that, I count all things as loss compared to the surpassing excellence of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ” Philippians 3:8

His Will, Way and Timing

I envisioned the path I wanted, so I toiled day and night to prepare it. I cleared out the brush, smoothed the gravel and started to put on my shoes.

I knew exactly what this path would bring, or so I conceded: love, long life, happiness, everything a girl could dream.

So I began my petition “Please Lord, oh bless this road I built. Let me have it. You see how perfect it is to be used for your will.” But He just kept telling me “Be still”.

The brush kept growing over. Soon barriers started popping up. “Lord what are you doing? Are You saying no to my request?” So, I’d clear it again, pray harder this time, keep working, never to rest.

Until the brush grew so tall, there was no way around it. My way was blocked with no recourse. This wasn’t the way it was supposed to be. So, I sat and mourned, questioned and screamed.

Then one day the brush shriveled up, the weeds crumbled to dirt and the path was clear. But now it looked like a brand new road – a tree lined path with a refreshing breeze. And this is what the Lord said to me:

“While you were toiling and spinning your wheels, I saw just what was in need. I saw the undergrowth that would be popping up on your way. I saw hazards and choking weeds. I allowed the brush to stop you, so I could finish my work and make this path the best it could be. Now go on my dear, we’ll journey from here on this path you’ve entrusted to me.”

The Flood

You’re working in each of our lives

For You know all the changes needed

Still in the storm, clinging to the one branch left

You’ll let us know when the waters have receded

“When the dove returned to him in the evening, there in its beak was a freshly plucked olive leaf! Then Noah knew that the water had receded from the earth.” Genesis 8:11

God of Certainty

He is not a God of confusion

He clearly lays his plans out

He whispers his intentions

And is faithful to bring them about

So don’t let the waiting or the shadows

Fill your heart with doubt

“Let us know; let us press on to know the Lord; his going out is sure as the dawn; he will come to us as the showers, as the spring rains that water the earth.” Hosea 6:3

Don’t trade what you know for what you don’t know…

Maybe this part of the past

Won’t be reconciled

Looking back

there may still be gaping holes

But time to let go of the questions

And focus on the truths I know

Although many days

seemed meant for evil

He’ll use them to produce good

Though oft it appeared

the enemy was winning

I’ll see his purpose in the end withstood

Beware

Every bright light

Has to be tested and tried

Held up to your Word

So the darkness can’t hide

“And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light.” 2 Corinthians 11:14

“We tear down arguments and every presumption set up against the knowledge of God; and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” 2 Corinthians 10:5

A Non-Rhyming Yet Good Reminder

Human reasoning and effort do not
Bring about the changes
Only God’s Spirit can accomplish
So, instead of mustering up strength
Surrender to His work in and around you
With steady, hopeful and patient faith

“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” Philippians 1:6

Raised to Walk

Crucified with Christ
My heart will remain
All my sins buried
My old self lay slain

He could leave me here
In defeat to face my doom
Wait, His outstretched hand I see
Lifting me out of the tomb

“When I saw him, I fell at his feet as though dead. But he laid his right hand on me, saying, “Fear not, I am the first and the last, and the living one. I died, and behold I am alive forevermore, and I have the keys of Death and Hades.” Revelation 1:17-18

“We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.” Romans 6:4

Betrayed

And when He was betrayed, He spoke not a word
For He knew it was all in His Father’s hands
To bring about the worst of earthly conditions
As a backdrop to marvel at His glorious plan

“Look! The hand of My betrayer is with Mine on the table. Indeed, the Son of Man will go as it has been determined, but woe to that man who betrays Him.” Luke 22:22

“If an enemy were insulting me, I could endure it; if a foe were rising against me,
I could hide. But it is you, a man like myself, my companion, my close friend, with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship at the house of God, as we walked about among the worshipers.” Psalm 55:12-14

Saying R’s

When I was young, I couldn’t say my R’s.  Everyone just thought it made me sound extra cute, or so they would say, so it didn’t seem to bother me.  Even though my brothers would taunt me “Jodi, Jodi, say Dr. Pepper!”  “Doctow Peppew”  And my parent’s friends thought it was so cute for me to repeat after them “Lizards have gizzards”.  “Lizzawds have gizzawds”, I would attempt.  One girl in my class, Tiffany, blurted out one day that she loved my accent.  “Now there’s an idea”, I thought, “I’ll just pretend like it’s an accent”.  But my friends standing around her laughed a little and cleared up her confusion that this was not some cool, rare accent.  I just couldn’t say my R’s.  Once I hit 3rd grade, my teachers started telling my mom she should probably do something about this.  So, on to speech lessons I went!

Speech lessons twice a week after school to learn to say my R’s felt like a daunting task, and I wondered if any amount of training would ever change the way I had spoken all my many years of life.  After several lessons, I discovered how to correctly pronounce the R… “purrrrrrple”.  “I said it!  I did it!  But, wait, that sure took a lot of learning and work just to be able to say the word 1 time”, I thought.  The outcome felt certain that I would have to think long and hard every time I said an R for the rest of my life!  But despite how it felt at the time, my teacher reassured me that after repeating the correct R many times, I would soon start to say it the right way without even thinking about it.  And, to my surprise, he was right.  Sure enough, the day came when I was saying every R correctly without any thought or effort.  That, to me, was amazing! 

Now when I face a change that feels like pushing 1,000 lbs. every laborious step and I wonder if the effort to change, whether it is adjusting to a loss or learning something new, I remember this lesson with my R’s.  I remember that with time and consistency, the load will lighten.  It won’t always be this heavy.  And one day before I know it, I’ll look and the weight will be gone.  I will have changed or grown past that struggle and I no longer have to think long and hard before saying each “R” or taking each step.  The same is true for each of us. 

Thank You, Lord, for growth, change and our ability to learn new things and new ways.  Thank You for promising to lighten the load as we cast our cares on You.         

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See, I am doing a new thing!  Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?  I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”  Isaiah 43:18-19

“Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”  Matthew 11:29

Gifts of Deficit

Thank You for my sorrow
For it is in the night
I best see Your light

Thank You for my questions
For it is within doubt
My faith finds it’s sight

Thank You for my hunger
For it is the pain of my need
That seeks filling from Your hand

Thank You for keeping my eyes under cover
For it is not knowing tomorrow
That keeps me surrendered to Your plan

Storm Chasers

I work in the insurance industry, specifically with property claims.  Hurricane season for an adjuster is like tax season for an accountant.  Depending on the number of storms and the severity, work can get extremely busy for months on end.  So more severe storms tends to mean overtime and much higher pay.  Therefore, could it be said that adjusters hope for catastrophes in order to benefit financially?  

Maybe a similar question forms when a follower of Jesus reaps the benefits of God’s grace while there is the storm of sin in their life.  Is that person intentionally following after sin knowing God’s grace will be there in abundance for as sin increases, so does His grace?

“The law was brought in so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more,” Romans 5:20

I believe in both cases, the answer is no.  The nature of the world is just that, the nature of the world.  It brings storms and disasters.  Things aren’t always the way we think they should be.  They are not the way they should be in the weather, in our homes or in our heads and as long as we’re on this earth, they never will be.  God knows this which is why He gave us adjusters for storms and grace for our sin.  So while we may not ask for the storms or seek them, we know within them does rest His security, love and grace. 

“What then? Shall we sin because we are not under the law but under grace? By no means!  Don’t you know that when you offer yourselves to someone as obedient slaves, you are slaves of the one you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?  But thanks be to God that, though you used to be slaves to sin, you have come to obey from your heart the pattern of teaching that has now claimed your allegiance.  You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness.” Romans 6:15-18

Sustenance

Often times I just get tired of figuring out what I’m going to eat. I wish I could just eat one thing, be full for the rest of the day (if not week) and be done with it. But unfortunately, it’s never worked that way. I eat and feel satisfied just to get hungry again a few hours later and have to start the whole process over again.

Getting fed spiritually feels a lot like this. I wish I could just say a prayer in the morning and be inspired with enough “Holy Ghost” to get me through the rest of the day. After time with the Lord and a word from Him, I chew on it for several hours. I feel blessed and complete and strong. I’m given new revelation that speaks to my heart and feelings of his tender love to help and heal the hurts. But just when I think I have all of life figured out for the rest of time because of this time of refreshing, I start running on fumes. That’s when I realize I’ve come to the end of myself again and must seek Him again for His strength and filling.

I can’t control the way my body hungers for food after one time of eating any more than I can control the way my spirit longs for the Lord after a period of communion.

What a good way to remind us to stay close to Him and never think we have to go through life on our own. He designed us to need Him. We just have to remember to keep coming to the table.

“Yes, he humbled you by letting you go hungry and then feeding you with manna, a food previously unknown to you and your ancestors. He did it to teach you that people do not live by bread alone; rather, we live by every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD.” Deuteronomy 8:3

Heaven

Maybe it is a gift

When You don’t make things here

The way that we want

Because here is not the purpose

Or the goal

Our unrequited requests and desires

Refuse to make us whole

And instead point our eyes towards home

A home where all our troubles

Will be washed away

Our tears forgotten

No more dreams tattered and frayed

But all of our hopes finally realized

And our joy completed

On that fateful day

Humbled

Does Christlike to you mean perfect?

Does it mean proud for all you give

Is it a list of your accomplishments?

Just another boast for how you’ve lived?

Or does it mean humble?

Does it mean sick and dependent on His grace?

Is it awareness of your weakened condition?

And finding peace in His embrace?

His Grace Along the Way

My sin has caused me to stumble
My failure causes much pain
But Your loving grace and discipline
Puts to death my own thinking and ways

Each season I rush to reach the end
Of the lesson at hand on my own
Instead of trusting the timing
In Your omniscient Hand is known

“If we claim we have not sinned, we are calling God a liar and showing that his word has no place in our hearts. My dear children, I am writing this to you so that you will not sin. But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate who pleads our case before the Father. He is Jesus Christ, the one who is truly righteous. He himself is the sacrifice that atones for our sins-and not only our sins but the sins of all the world.”

1 John 1:10- 2:2